I keep thinking of that John Lennon quote lately, you know the one "Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans". I should learn not to post anything on this blog about my life as nothing works out the way I think it will.
I've just gone through one hell of a stressful seven day. In fact I can't believe it has only been seven days. I have been asking myself some very big questions and on the whole not been getting any solid answers. Maybe when it comes to life there are no answers, you either do or you don't. Well this has been my conclusion but like I said I've not really been thinking straight, so I would take everything I say with a pitch of salt:)
My big dilemma is really that I strongly feel that I do not want to return to the UK. I'm about as English as they come so it's a bit of a shock to find that I feel like this. When I think back over my the past 14 months in Wellington I can honestly say it has been one of the happiest times of my life and even over this past week, which has been filled with lows, I have had so many amazing friends looking after me both in life and online. In short I do not feel ready to leave New Zealand yet... I do not wish to state this as fact but it's close to being the case. I am very lucky to have a loving family who are supporting me and I have made my mind up not to think of it as anything more than what will make me happiest for the next six months. After that I can ask some big questions again.